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Tuesday, July 07, 2009

So... it's been a while huh?

First, I need to write down a hectic weekend I had 2 weeks ago - just so I NEVER forget it

That end of the week consisted of:
- finishing my first semester of uni (and doing my first and only exam, sigh)

- UNIFEST at the bourbon @ kings cross.. Sam la more and dj goodwill rocked my night and my ears were still ringing when I got home

- Flora's 18th. My my, houses on the north shore are DEFINITELY different. It was overflowing with class

- Susan and Aimee's 18th @ Verandah Bar. Met a couple of interesting people ahem. It was a good night overall

- Barely had any sleep and went to watch transformers 2. THIS was the best ending to an awesome weekend :)

and now, I have nothing to do.

sigh

It's uni break and I've been home for the last couple of days and I think I'm going crazy. Not because I'm at home, but because I have no money to go out. I must say, I've become very dependent on my fortnightly pay. Without money, I have this sense of worry and my sense of security is down the drain. Even when I'm out just locally, the recurring thought that I have little money in my wallet makes me feel quite insecure. But thank god I'm getting paid this thursday :)

Now I'm on holidays, I promise to blog more :)

I make that promise because I don't have anything brog-worthy on my mind at the moment haha

I'll probably brog tomorrow or so 8)

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Sunday, June 21, 2009

Currently
Knock You Down
By Keri Hilson
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So last night was Emmy's 18th party at the Epping Hotel and it was fun :)

I think I'm starting to like hanging out at local places rather than going all out clubbing in the city

local places have that more closed intimate atmosphere I think.. but too bad no one lives local to ME.. we could've totally hung out at the bull n bush every weekend haha

Anyway, so lately haven't been upto much. My one and only semester exam is on Thursday and I don't think I've left too much study to the last minute. Because there's only one exam for me, it's made me think "hey, uni is pretty cruisey" but no.. next semester is going to be hell with mid sem exams and vivas.. ALL on top of the usualy hand in assignments :( Badass me, I haven't responded to my placement email yet. To be honest, I don't want to go on placement. Even though it's compulsory, it's the next step of responsibility as a future health professional. Eurgh, responsibility it's a word that haunts me. Like, sure I can hold responsibility for myself, but holding responsibility for another living human being?! That's so heavy and it's too much for me. Hopefully I'll overcome this hunch and I'll be able to confidently take care of another person....... hopefully..........

So my exam finishes on Thursday. After the exam, I have to rush off to work, til 9 pm then afterwards possibly dinner and drinks at strathfield for john and christina's 18th :) Then Friday, working again then rush home and get ready for UNIFEST omg I'm so excited :)) love clubbing at the cross and it's seediness <3 Then get home somehow or crash at jess's house. Then Saturday night is Flo's 18th party at her house. Leaving that at about 9 pm to go clubbing for aimee and susan's birthday at verandah bar then probably crash at someone's house. Then massive hang over on sunday. I swear, this line up is fantastic - there's no better way to welcome end of semester break! But I am quite low on money.. well, not low on money, but low on money that I can actually spend. I don't particularly want to touch my funds towards my future mazda 3. And I bet you're thinking "why is Kiera saving up for a car when she can't even drive..." and to be honest, I don't know either LOL... But having long term goals like this is really good becaues its like, a higher purpose to work towards :))

So yes... end of semester break.. I want to do stuff. I'm currently on a regime to slimming down (which is very slowly happening), I want to get my navel pierced with Rez, I want to read lots of books, and watch a lot of classic movies, I want to learn accoustic guitar, I want to do volunteer work, I want another job omg so many things I want to do!

I guess this whole "I want to do more stuff" is a result of one time when I was shopping at parra with my mum. I was looking in the mirror and I just looked so run down. Not only appearance wise, but just my face looked so tired and worn out. And I thought "whoa, why do I look like this when I'm not even doing much?" It made me realise I'm spending my time so unwisely. I sleep too much. Like way too much. Even though apparently at our age we're supposed to be sleeping crazy amounts, but I think I exceed those crazy amounts. I used to be able to survive on minimal sleep i.e. 2, 3 hours a night, but now I need 8 hours plus. EXTREME.

So yes, I'm going to change myself :) Sleep less, exercise more, eat better, work more, improve my quality as a human being, socialise more (I realised I have minimal friends.. well, not really, it's just they're all pre-occupied with their own things and relationships and what not) and become a better and nicer person :)

ahahah this sounds like a new years resolution.... but I guess this can be mine because I didn't really have one this year.. oh wait, yes I did. It was along the lines of "work hard, play hard", but I guess the above is a more detailed structure of "work hard, play hard" haha.

Anyway, my blog is so dead and the only way to revive it is with more blogs of the new me :))

wish me luck kiddies!

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Thursday, June 11, 2009

I am in suxh zombie mode right now.

Last night, I couldn't sleep because I've been having WHACK dreams so I've turned semi insomniac. I got about 3 hours sleep -_-

Even though I started work at 11:30, I made myself wake up at 8:30 because I knew I was going to be so disorientated that I'd sit on my bed for 15 minutes doing nothing haha.

Worked from 11:30 til 9 pm and OMG I swore I died.

When it's not busy (and it hardly is these days because of the state of the economy and what not) so I have to look like I'm busy so I clean.

But the thing is, I'll find myself cleaning nothing in the end because I've already cleaned and tidied up o_o

So I just pointlessly stand behind the counter... in the same space for hours and hours end.... with no windows to the outside scenery so I don't know how time is progressing.....

You have no idea how ecstatic I become when they tell me to get/do something in the storage room LOL. I love just walking around the shopping centre and not just standing on my feet. So anywayyyyy the point of this blog/e-rant, is to rant about these 2 particular customers I had.

One lady came in saying she bought an evening bag "yesterday" (I checked the receipt and it was in fact, a couple of days ago). She wanted to change the colour because apparently when she bought it, she "forgot to bring her shoes to match it with, and forgot her glasses so she thought it would have matched".

When she told me this, I said, CALMLY, "sorry, I understand the difficult situation you're in, but we have a blanket policy of no refund or exchange on evening bags. We have a lot of cases where someone buys a clutch, uses it for the night and brings it back the next day. I'm not accusing you of this, but that's the explanation for the blanket policy."

She's standing there, absolutely dumbfounded, and starts raging and shaking?!?!??! She demands for our business details and MY NAME and how to spell it because she's silly. And starts threatening "Well, you're going to hear from centre management about this, and you definitely will hear from my barrister about this"

Lady, let me tell you some things. Firstly, centre management doesn't handle cases like this. Centre management handles cases of shoplifting and promotional activities. The Department of Fair Trading handles what you're on about. Even if you report us, it's OUR policy. It's the policy that's written on the wall, the policy that's written on the counter, the policy that's written on the receipt. There's a whole reason why we recommend people to bring their shoes/dresses/accessories with them so they don't make the wrong decision whilst matching clutches. And second of all, are you for real? You'll call your barrister over a petty case of an evening bag? Lady, you've got to find more productive things to do with your day rather than boost your ego sky high by proclaiming that you own a barrister. It was totally unneccessary. Does it make you feel more superior when you say "MY barrister" ??

And then you stand there squabbling and begging for an exhange "I KNOW you don't do exchange or refund but can't you make an exception???" Lady, you're pathetic. You KNOW the policy, terms and conditions. And if you treated us nicely with respect, then sure I can consider making an exception. And just because you looked so pathetic, especially in front of your kid, I let you slide through and take another bag and a wallet.

The next customer(s): a group of pretentious high school kids. The main "ringleader" comes in storming, throwing down an UO wallet screaming that she wants a refund. I remind her that we do not give refunds, only exchange or credit notes, and I ask her what the problem is. She shows me the wallet and it has a small black mark on it. I look at it. I look at the UO price tag (which is black as well) and notice a bit of the black scratched off - the black from the tag transferred onto the wallet because it's been in the packaging for a bit too long lol. I explain the circumstance to the customer and she's still raging. I stay calm and offer saying "well, I can offer you 3 options. I can give you the same wallet but brand new, or you can exchange it for any other wallet you'd like, or I can give you a credit note." Simple. And inevitably, the girl had nothing to say. What, was she expecting some verbal showdown? Even if she provoked me, I wouldn't've given it to her. Her friends look at her concened and say "hmm.. maybe you should just get an exchange" and as soon as they said that, the ringleader goes quiet and starts browsing wallets. FFS.

Whenever a customer treats me nicely of course I reciprocate and for instance, I'll give them a bit of a discount without my boss knowing, or I'll extend their layby period.You know, it feels good to be nice once in a while. If people just treated the other person with polite default manners, it's more than likely the situation will turn good. It was completely unneccessary for the two above customers to react the way they did. If they came in a calm well-mannered approach, no one gets emotional and we'll have an optimistic customer merchant relationship.Despite their disgusting behaviour, I still treat them with a smile and empathy.

What's happening to the world's people. Why are we so quick to jump into action?

It's sad to see basic human manners deteriorating so exponentially.

Do "good deeds" exist anymore?

sigh

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Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Life

..is not what it used to be

uni is swallowing my life in little bites

During the first 2 weeks I thought, "maybe I just need more time to adapt" "maybe I'm just over reacting and being whiney"

But I don't think it's just me anymore

I think it actually is UNI that is sucking the fun out of life

Uni changes people - I'm so easily provoked now

After a stressful day of uni, I come home. If anyone bugs me, I will lash out at them

I never used to be like this. The only major thing that's changed in my life, is that I've started uni. So deductive reasoning: uni is making me into a freaking MONSTER

I have something due every week from week 5 :(

I'm sick of catching buses and trains

I always just want to sleep once I get home, but a nagging voice in my head says "you have _____ due tomorrow, as well as ______ readings to do, and activity ____ to do for _____"

With my head filled this CRAP, there is no social life.

What happened to the work life balance?

Uni has become the ONLY thing in my life, so now it's just the "work uni balance"

Today, I ran into a hornsby graduate in the library. I just felt so comforted by her presence because her and I have something in common, something that I'm confident about, something that I'm familiar with. I miss hornsby so much

I miss my friends and I haven't seen them in so long.

Part of it is my fault because I say "I don't have time" (which is complete crap because you're supposed to "make" time), but part of it is also because I hardly travel to the city, like, never. But sometimes I think that they're lack of contact as well, somewhat indicates that they're fine without me and fine without seeing me. Some days I'll think that that's not true and I'm just crazy talking, but some days I think its true. SEE! SEE WHAT UNI'S DOING TO ME T_______T

rant to me about school so I feel somewhat better about myself please T_T

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Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Let's have a major catch up sesh

So.... It's been a long long time since I've blogged!

It's been so long, that my layout is still summer related.

It's been so long, that I haven't updated with photos

It's been so long, that I have no friends left.

~~It's been so long that I've been kicked out of xanga~~

ahahha I kid :)

But in all honesty, it HAS been ages. So a quick update on meine life.

Last week was the first week of uni of my life :)

It was really tiring due to the 8 am class on a monday morning finishing at 3 pm. It's like high school all over again. I shake my fist at the person who said "uni is so much fun!" -_- My timetable is pretty good except for the crazy morning classes. I get thursdays off which I spend working (moollah is *thumbs up*) and after week 3, I'll be getting fridays off as well :) YAY! long weekend :) :) :)

I have to catch 2 buses and a train to uni. Sounds like a lot, but it ain't that bad actually because each ride only takes about 15 ~ 20 minutes. Too bad it's not long enough to have a good power nap aye :(

I like my campus. A lot of people bag it out saying that it's in the middle of no where (which is true I must admit lol), but it's so laid back. I remember going to the city campuses and they seem (no offence) pretentious? Like all those kids that are like "I go to uni in the city" (with emphasis on "city"). Despite the fact that no one from my high school (except Gen L) goes to my campus, I like the relaxed feel to it.

BUT..

I am reminded of death everyday I go to uni..... pretty depressing because theres a cemetry across the road from uni. LOL its funny because at high school, we had a massive westfield across the road. WHAT A CONTRAST! But yeah, to and from the uni and the station, there cemetry just reminds me of death, and how short and unpredictable life is and that we should live life to our maximum potential.

actually, by the sounds of it, that's a good thing because it's like, motivation o_o?

My friend at uni this Korean girl called Jess. If you know cumbo, it's very VERY caucasion dominated. And my course is 98% white. So out of ALL of those white people, I just happened to turn around to introduce myself, on orientation day, to a fellow korean ahahaha. We're the only two koreans in our course. AND! turns out that our mama's know each other. It was fate to meet. DESTINY!

Before uni started, I was all emo because cumbo is known to be female dominated. Going to an all girls high school and then a female dominated uni? that's... how to say it.... it's pretty shit house haha! but not to worry! there ARE boys. Let me re-confirm: yes, there ARE boys. And quite a lot of good looking boys from physio and sport science hehehehhehhehee... well they ARE doing physio and sport science so hehehehehe *and continues to giggle like a little girl*

what else..

LOL at the korean freshies at cumbo! Jess and I were approaching them asking questions regarding a gathering on friday night. We were addressing them with respectful terms and stuff. Then they're like, "oh, we're first years as well" LOL my god, BUT THEY LOOK SO OLD..... well, they ARE old, but they look older than they are. One girl is 19? 20? but she looked 25. One guy was like, oh I was born in 1981. I calculated in my head and was like OMG YOU'RE 28! like seriously, I shouldn't be addressing him as "oppa" but as "ahjusshi" *puts on disgusted face* and he was talking about how he's already been to 군대 (the compuslory military service for 2 years) in Korea. If you don't understand, once you've gone to 군대, you're kinda, considered as "old", but in my books, I'll consider you as an ahjusshi mwaahaha. This other unni was saying how she got threatened by her previous landlord to get deported by the immigrant office and she was mumbling under her breath "I'm an international student.. just because I'm not good with english, doesn't mean I can't be here" LOL awww... mind you, I've only heard her speak korean ahah

one thing I don't like about koreans is the way we cluster together. Like, the circle is so exclusive and enclosed. Koreans kinda just clump together and don't associate with non-Koreans. And the korean sunbae's sit right in the MIDDLE of the outdoor cafeteria. And they kinda dress up for uni (which I totally don't approve of because thats so douchebag-y) so they really do look older. It's just so noticeable that the group is so exclusive. Korean clumpings...... but I am suprised that none of them are going to AKA party.

This friday is kathy's birthday dinner AND cumbo koreans first year party AND AKA first year party... so busy =X I'm still thinking about how to go about this dilemma. I'm thinking of ditching AKA party because I don't even go to the city campus and I'll never see those people. So still trying to figure out how to juggle cumbo party and birthday dinner. AND! must decide if I'm gonna go to usyd beachball or not. Its on a thursday night! and public transport stops at like, midnight! wtf! I asked brother hwang to pick me up from parra station after I nightride it. His response: "I dunno, ask me tomorrow.." omg... today is monday, well technically, tuesday now that its 3 am. beachball is thursday! I NEED TO KNOW YOUR ANSWER NOOOOOOOW!!

Speaking of crap public transport/crapness with public transport in general! On my way home, I was soooo buggered from uni that I fell asleep on the bus and missed my bus stop -____________-

it's the second time it's happened in the last week -_- As a result, I had to walk an extra 20 minutes T_T

I told my brother about it and he's like YOU TOOL. WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT

Does it look like I WANTED to do it? -_-

Last week was the UTS start of semester party - White party @ Home bar. It was a pretty fun night, renewed some acquaintances into "friends". Got hit onto by some guy who's name that I don't remember at all. But he ended up being a frigid loser haha so no loss there! It's funny because I had random conversations with so many randoms that night. I dunno if its the partying/celebratory mood or just plainly the alcohol, people are just more friendlier. haha whoa, bad english right thurr.. but yeah, I was talking to this guy (WHO WAS SO FRUITY!! :))at the bar and we were just randomly chatting about everything lol. Like, it wasn't anything like sleazy or potential hook up, it was just nice chit chat :)

then while at the bus stop I was talking to this other guy. Just talking about hillsbus and how our nights went. He had a bottle of gatorade and I was looking at it because I was sooo thirsty, but of course I didn't want to ask for some because I hardly know the guy. Then he asked me "do you want some? Actually let me buy you one" He bought me (a complete stranger!) gatorade!!!! Which was indeed highly appreciated <3 thank you mysterious gatorade man that lives near tuckwell street! LOL

THEN! while I was walking home, this girl was walking behind me. I must say, there is minimal street lighting and the quicket way to walk is through this dodgy-ish parking lot. So I kept looking to see if there was anyone sus looking but it was just me and that girl. Just as I was opening my mouth to talk to her, she calls out in her little voice "are you freaked out by walking by yourself?" and I'm like "YES! Can we walk together?" and we walked through the car park and down the street together ahahahha. She was turning into her street wasn't like, okay bye. She was like, are you going to be alright walking the rest of the way home? Like, c'mon how NICE is that! I think this just shows random acts of kindness truly do leave an impression on people :)

oh yeah, mama hwang isn't home this week! she went on her annual art workshop weeks in the blue mountains! at first I was celebrating "yay! party party party!" but then I realised "oh ffs, that means I'm going to have to do everything around the house.....FUCK!".

Seriously, I have to do the washing, make dinner, make my dads lunch, pack my own lunch, wash the dishes, dry, then clean up dinner, then wash up again. Not to mention one off ironing, miscellaneous cleaning. and OMG I HAD TO/STILL HAVE TO DO MORE GROCERY SHOPPING

dont get me wrong, I enjoy shopping - clothes shopping, shoe shopping, bag shopping and I enjoy grocery shopping, but the hell of it is going with my brother. I'm indecisive as it is, but PUT US TOGETHER and omg! last night, we were deciding whether or not we should buy crackers and dip. Then it took another 5 minutes standing in the cold section deciding which flavour dip to buy <_< lol and whenever we buy something, we always look out for the specials LOL... sounds stingy, but its an inside joke. Agesssss ago, we were watching wife swap (I know, weird, but it WAS like 1 am and tv is weird) and there was this wife who'd think that shes doing good for her family if she bought things on special REGARDLESS of it they needed it or not. So whenever brother hwang and I go shopping we always get excited and say OMG IT'S ON SPECIAL! okay... now I just sound lame... I hate that. Whenever you recount a story in hopes to entertain the other person but afterwards you just think "okay, it was funnier when it happened... maybe I shouldn't've shared this story...gosh...." lol T_T

Anyway!

I should sleeeeeeep. 'Tis 3:17 am and I plan on going to uni early, before my 1 pm tut starts. Go to the library and catch up on some notes etc. Can you believe it. I have an assessment next week, and we only started last week! how much can you learn in 3 weeks that can be assessed? STUPID.

A couple of shout outs to some of my many lovelies:

Ellie: love you lots and can't wait to see you on Friday to give you a humungous hug

Stella: I saw the couple of photos that you uploaded on xanga! You're so gorgeous and Australia misses you muchly <333 Message me your permanent address in Korea, hun!

And happy late birthday to michaelaface. Another birthday message haha. Nougat honey logs, budddy, they're so good <3 definitely worth the $1.80 at uni

p.s. I joined the hghs old girls union, but only to be sent the November issues of the old girls union newsletter. I joined to get up-to-date news from hghs, not to be sent old old crap! lol dodgy.....

p.p.s. some visuals may be in the next weblog. And a new layout (if I find one quickly tomorrow night or so)

p.p.p.s. WHO'S GOING TO BEACHBALL?????

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